The Fiberary

The side Instas and Twitter are gone. After tonight, my main Instagram and FB are gonna be gone too. It feels weird to remove FB after over a decade of having an account there, especially because the local SCA is most active there, and I’ll be losing immediate, easy access to a lot of people, but I think this will be good for me. The fear of missing out is so strong, but I also want to reclaim my time in ways that aren’t doom scrolling or being confronted by a bajillion ads and influencers and then, maybe, one person I actually follow and know!

I really enjoy snail mail so hopefully the folks I write will write back (and if not that’s also fine; I have too much stationery and I’ll keep writing anyways).

It does feel a little better to have some contact information with people; it will help when I do press the final delete button tonight. I’ve gone back and forth about deleting socials for almost a year now, so even though it feels a little impulsive to scorched earth it, I don’t really think it is. I think it’s more a big scary “oh god this is a significant portion of my life record that I’m getting rid of” but then again it’s only really valuable to me. And I have true notebooks going back just as far, and I don’t really want to be remembered forever or anything so what is the point of keeping it? I want to be in the moment and enjoy things and feel like I’m genuinely connecting with people’s lives rather than watching from afar. Likes feel so impersonal. Also no one can track my likes if I vocalize them to the person I want to hear them.

It feels like I’m about to drop a weight I’ve not realized I’ve been carrying for years. I hope it continues to feel that way. I think it will.